Still in the Running

E2 came in at 181 today, so there's been some progression.  We're following 3 decent sized follicles on the left side, with 2-3 others that are measurable.  The right side isn't responding and has no measurable follicles.  So, that's great.  It's not over yet.

Today I found out that my youngest sister (I have 2) is pregnant.  It is resurfacing all sorts of emotions.  Angry that I was the only sibling that had to struggle with this (because life is fair and we should have the same amount of strife in all our lives, right?).  Upset that I am the only sibling to have children "late" in life...I feel like a failure.  Why didn't I try to have children sooner?  What was I waiting for?  I'm sure I will feel happy for her, but it just feels like another reminder that I'm different and this isn't something that is easy for us.  I said all the right things.  I told her I was happy for her.  I told her they'd be great parents.  I was a good sister even though I was silently crying.  Man, these drugs make everything harder.