More Room in My Heart: Not pregnant

Sunday, November 28, 2010

Not pregnant

Got my period as I was peeing on the stick.

12 comments:

lastchanceivfNovember 28, 2010 at 5:41 AM
I'm so so sorry. I know my words are completely inadequate. I'm thinking about you.
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AnonymousNovember 28, 2010 at 5:51 AM
oh no! i'm so sorry. :( i know there's nothing i can say, but please know i'm sending you lots of virtual love. (hugs)
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AnonymousNovember 28, 2010 at 6:04 AM
Oh no. No no no no. I am so sorry. Thinking about you.
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cherelliNovember 28, 2010 at 7:55 AM
Crap.
I don't know what to say - please say it was implantation bleeding?? Guess not. Agh. Sorry doesn't cover it anymore.
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KathleenNovember 28, 2010 at 8:42 AM
i'm so sorry. i know how you are feeling, or at least a bit of it. i wish i could come take you out for a long run and then lots of beers afterwards. i'm thinking of you today. hugs.
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AFMNovember 28, 2010 at 1:50 PM
So sorry. big hugs
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Glass Case of EmotionNovember 28, 2010 at 3:25 PM
I'm so very sorry. :(
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The Salty OneNovember 28, 2010 at 5:25 PM
:( I'm so unbelievably sorry. I'm thinking of you!!!
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Justine LNovember 28, 2010 at 6:10 PM
:( I'm so sorry ... sending hugs, and wishing I had something more adequate to offer than a shoulder and an ear.
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Mrs. BrightsideNovember 28, 2010 at 7:00 PM
Wish had something more to say, but I'm just so sorry. So sorry for it all, these emotional few weeks, the disappointment of today, and everything that's led up to it.
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Infertile FarmerNovember 29, 2010 at 10:17 AM
Nooo!!! I am just devastated to read this. I always seem to get my period before my scheduled beta and it is seriously one of the most painful experiences. You have had such an emotional roller coaster ride this cycle...I am just speechless. This process is just so incredibly unfair. I am so so sorry. (Hugs)
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SerenityNovember 29, 2010 at 10:57 AM
I HATE pee sticks.

I'm so sorry. :(

xoxo
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Our Infertility Journey

Aug 2013: IVF#10: Antagonist protocol with estrogen priming at Same Big Clinic: 8 eggs, 3 mature, 2 fertilized, 2 3-day 7-cell and 8-cell transferred.

Jun 2013: IVF#9: BFN: Antagonist protocol with estrogen priming at Same Big Clinic: 9 eggs, 5 mature, 4 fertilized, 2 3-day 8-cell transferred.

Apr 2013: My son Mackenzie Ryan died at 22 weeks 1 day due to a degenerative placenta. I delivered him on April 3, 2013. It was the most horrific experience of my life.

Feb 2013: Major car accident likely damaged placenta.

Jan 2013: Our little twin left this world.

Nov 2012: IVF#8: BFP: Antagonist protocol with estrogen priming at Same Big Clinic (Clinic #3): 15 eggs, 10 mature, 9 fertilized, 1 8-cell and 1 7-cell transferred

Sept 2012: IVF#7: BFN: Antagonist protocol at Same Big Clinic (Clinic #3): 5 eggs, 4 mature, 1 fertilized, 1 9-cell transferred

Dec 2011: Hello Baby Girl! No year of "magical thinking" this time. We know no way and no how are we ever going to get knocked up naturally. Begin the weaning process in June. Take Provera in July. Fail. Move on to bcp and *finally* get period in August.

Apr/May 2011: IVF#6: BFP! Antagonist protocol with Estrogen Priming at Big Clinic (Clinic #3): 6 eggs, 4 mature, 2 fertilized, 2 3-day 8-cell and 7-cell transferred.

Mar/Apr 2011: HSG (again) and estrogen priming; Month of my Amazing 18 Antral Follicle Count

Feb/Mar 2011: Natural IUI: BFN: Pretty sure this is going to be negative, but what the heck.

Jan/Feb 2011: IVF#5: BFN: Antagonist protocol at RMA-NJ, (6 eggs, 5 mature, 4 fertilized, 2 day-5 hatching blasts transferred, 1 day-6 blast frozen)

Dec 2010: Meet with multiple doctors (RMA, SIRM-NY, Cornell). Start adoption paperwork. Begin accupuncture.

Nov 2010: IVF #4: BFN (Microdose Lupron Flare Protocol, 8 eggs, 4 mature, 4 fertilized, 1 Day 5 blastocyst & 2 Day 5 morulas transferred, none frozen)

Oct 2010: Treat mild, chronic endometritis (diagnosed in Sept endometrial biopsy).

Sept 2010: Testing. Why no implantation? HSG again (all clear!). Endometrial biopsy (endometritis:<). Diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve (AMH=1.1, FSH=5.7).

Jul/Aug/Sept 2010: IVF #3: BFN (long lupron protocol, 9 eggs, 8 mature, 5 fert, 2 5-day transferred, none frozen)

Jun/Jul 2010: Where is my period??

Apr/May/Jun 2010: FET #2: BFN

Mar 2010: Clomid/HCG/coitis

Feb 2010: Clomid/HCG/coitis

Jan 2010: Provera to bring on period; ovulate instead, HCG trigger, timed intercourse

Dec 2009: Where is my period? 13 months no period since birth of son.

Nov 2009: SA improved! 7% normal morph=normal couple!!

Baby's First Year: Breastfeeding, recovering from awful delivery, running like crazy! My "year of magical thinking" hoping that we get to be one of those "lucky" couples that don't have any problems getting pregnant with #2. No BC. No period. No pregnancy.

Nov 2008: Hello Baby Nugget!!

Jan/Feb/Mar 2008: IVF#1: BFP!! (long stim, 6 eggs, 6 embryos, 2 3-day transferred, 2 5-day frozen)

Nov/Dec 2007: IUI #1: BFN

Oct 30, 2007: Diagnosis: Male factor infertility 2% morphology; ovulatory dsyfunction

Sept/Oct 2007: tests galore

Aug/Sept 2007: 44 day cycle; visit obgyn; referred to RE

April/May 2007: Trip to Machu Picchu for my 29th birthday; officially TTC with charting, etc.

Feb 2007: Stop taking BCP; regular periods; not preventing, but not consciously trying